scared..

tonite.. i feel so scared..

thinking what and how my life would be

if you are not here with me..

how would i live without you

and how would i go on with my life without you..

god.. i'm scared.. just too scared to open my eyes tomorrow..

god.. i'm praying.. i'm hoping..

 i'm too miserable to think..

 and i'm too scared to even let my self hoping... hoping to be with you.. 

~mel

dunno what to do...