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Ahad, 18 Januari 2009

Empty..

Empty.. this what i feel right now.. dunno how to describe it.. i'm hoping for a happy life.. a happier life.. a sense of belonging.. at the moment i know.. i'm totally alone.. just realised that if i died in this empty house.. no one will ever know.. no one.. and that might be my fate...

In my emptiness.. suddenly this song appeared in a friend's last.fm in his blog.. some of the lyrics in this song just make my tears flow.. yes.. i tried my hardest to forget everything.. tried my hardest to fake a smile.. but at the moment.. i am really afraid...

KC- Because Of You..
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you


~mel
i have only me.. only me..

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